Client Story: Lamia Hassanein
For the past eight years, I’ve worked really hard to lose weight. Going from 90kg to 60kg in three years was a journey of hard work. I thought by then that I had achieved it all. But every time I decided it was about time to lead a normal life—by enjoying eating a full range of foods and exercising less than the 5 days a week of weight-lifting and cardio, in no time the excess weight would creep back up on me.
But even worse than the weight was the dark image of me being overweight. It never left my mind and the self-torture was the worst.
On this journey, I was dull, with a severe drop in immunity and extreme stress with every kilo I gained. Moreover, I was still trapped inside the overweight woman I saw every time I looked at myself in the mirror regardless of the scale readings. I even stuck one of my worst photos on the fridge to remind myself of how I used to be. I tortured myself and instilled in my mind that I am meant to be overweight because my whole family were. I told myself that I am doomed unless I keep on working out and trying every severe diet out there. I got sick as a dog with continuous ulcer outbreaks in my mouth. Eating became the most torturous time of each day.
My whole family blamed this on my dieting and extremely stressful style of life. Blaming myself for eating and over-watching my weight, I felt the same too. So instead, I decided I will enjoy all foods around me in order to recover. And I did. But I became more tense and more fatigued. I had to sleep every day after work; had no energy to do anything and of course, was gaining all the WEIGHT back!!
Eating became the most torturous time of each day.
I followed Empowered Wellness and Living magazine from Facebook and received the first email. I don’t know why I felt it was truly talking to me and it didn’t even occur to me that this is a circulation. I emailed Dana back asking for her help and she was right there with her suggestions explaining to me how things should work. I followed Dana for several months before I joined any of the short-term programs.
When the “Light-up your life” mentoring group program opened for registration, I knew it was meant for me. I wanted to think and see myself differently and I was eager to change the inside and not only what I ate.
From the first module and Circle of Life exercise, Dana opened my eyes that my weight problem is not related to my willpower or my food; it is in the balance. But I didn’t know how. I am a working mother of two, juggling a house and an extremely demanding job; a sick mother; a demanding husband and continuous in-laws and family commitments.
Here is where my challenged lay. I had to face all the old-school thinking every day–every meal at home and every family lunch or dinner invitation. Every change was a challenge, even the odor of my new natural soaps and shampoos was a reason for those around me to call me a “weirdo” and “psycho” and the avoidance of my partner to me. Honestly, I shut out all these voices around me, and continued through. I didn’t try to do anything to convince or explain.
But then, the radiance, freshness and focused thinking I proceeded with spoke for me and kept everyone around me wondering what the change was. They stopped questioning me and in fact they started questioning, themselves.
Little by little, they all experienced my transformation either by gaining results after joining me (my partner became a partner during the Paleo phase) or by having a smoother encounter with me. MY THINKING CHANGED!!!
My weight problem is not related to my willpower or my food; it is in the balance.
Every day on the program was enlightening. Not only Dana with her friendly feather light coaching but everyone on the group had something to share and something to teach me. Every woman came with her story, set of struggles and questions that inspired, opened new doors and discussions for all of us to see better results.
There were days when I was inclined to fall apart or relapse and stop believing that I CAN, but the minute I shared my struggles with the group, I found a million hands ready to pull me out and give me a push. There were epic discussions and sincere follow-ups from Dana to ensure that I am moving forward and drilling deep enough to make me question the reasons that put me in such a state.
I was mentored to use my magic wand; not to solve my problems but to learn the wisdom from every situation; to clear my brain from unnecessary squabble and painful memories to make space for better moments and worthy struggles.
I cherish every single experience in this program moreover, in my life. Most of all, I celebrate being a ME that I enjoy. I quit smoking after 20 years of abusive use. I see myself differently. Even at 62kg I see myself as pretty charming.
My internal conversation (critter mind) changed the most. I am no longer shouting at myself or accusing her of being guilty. I embrace my mistakes and take responsibility for them, and don’t stay whining in the land of shame but rather take the learning and move forward.
And yes, my change was not only about the food, it was the SOUL!
Thank you, Dana.
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